Fantasy Sports

I've always thought fantasy sports were silly. I never understood them and never gave it a try. But after playing Mafia Wars on facebook for a little bit, the thought of another "game" I could play for just a few minutes at a time might be fun. So I joined a football league on NFL.com. I am having some fun with it so I thought I'd start and basketball league for some friends and family at ESPN.com. Should be pretty interesting and fun. Let's just hope my wife doesn't kick my butt too much!

Is this real life?

Do you ever feel like you are still a kid and the world is full of grown ups who understand what the world is all about? Do you feel like you are lost, and just kind of making it up as you go? If so, then you think as I do.

Sometime I feel like there is suppose to be some big eye opening "AH HAH" moment when everything comes together and makes sense, yet it never comes.

I am very happy in my personal life. My "professional life" leaves something to be desired, but all-in-all I am very happy.

However, I look at my Dad and I see a guy who has it figured out. He understands the world. He knows how to fix everything. He is big and strong. He can grow a beard with more than six hairs. He is a man.

Then there is me. I do not look "manly", I just look like a fat kid. I can't fix anything. I'm rather average and not very imposing. I feel like a 29 year old kid.

When will I feel like an adult? When will everyday life feel "normal" and when do I stop feeling lost? When will this silly world and my purpose in it make any sense? I thought by 29 I'd feel like an adult and I'd have things figured out, but inside I feel like the same kid that went to Hunter High 11 years ago, just 60 lbs heavier.

In My Life

A Beatles Song for Jill ;)

There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed,
Some forever, not for better,
Some have gone and some remain.
All these places had their moments,
With lovers and friends I still can recall,
Some are dead and some are living,
In my life I've loved them all.
But of all these friends and lovers,
There is no one compared with you,
And these mem'ries lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new.
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before,
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more.
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before,
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more.
In my life I love you more.

Beatlemaina

I am obsessed with the Beatles. I can't get enough. No matter how hard I try to listen to other music, my ipod finds its way back to John, Paul, George, and Ringo. I'm reading books on the Fab Four, watching documentaries, and youtubing videos like mad. I don't think I have been captivated by something other then my love for my wife like I have for the Beatles. Their genius is unparalleled and the music ages so well. Right now I cannot get enough of "Blackbird", "No Reply", "Two of Us", and "Dig a Pony". If you haven't listened to them in awhile, or you've never given them a chance, I suggest you do! I've converted a few friends, maybe you will become a fanatic too?

XboxLive? More like Xboxdied!

I play Xbox. I play it more then a married 29 year old man should. I also own a PS3 and a Wii. I like video games, it's who I am and I'm not ashamed of it (like I am of my love for pro wrestling, but that's another post). My PS3 and Wii have both given me moments of fun. The Wii is interactive and is good when entertaining. The PS3 has a few great games and offers Blu-Ray movies, which is nice on my 1080p tv. But, by the dust collecting on both those machines, you can tell that I am an Xbox guy all the way. Problem with Xbox 360 systems is the fact that they self destruct. They are the most problematic console in history. Every single person I know has had one die on them. I've had two die now. Xbox knows they make crappy machines and luckily fix a majority of them for free. So, it's cool that they will once again fix my machine for free, but it sucks that I have to go about three weeks without my favorite toy. Even worse is that my wife leaves for a vacation in Denver to see her mother Thursday, and I won't have her warmth and love at home, nor will I have it from my Xbox. Guess I'll have to dust off the PS3...